I have to say it loud and clear... God wants to know you!!! He desires a personal and intimate relationship with you His child. Can you imagine carrying a baby in your womb for 40 weeks, giving birth, watching him grow and then him never wanting to talk to you, play with you, snuggle with you? I wonder if God sees his children who are born into this world and never accept Him as their father as if they are stillborn. Basically, they never found the life He intended even though their bodies formed in the flesh, therefor they never were alive in the first place! If you feel stillborn God still can breath life into you if you ask Him to do so. His Word is a story of redemption. Past, present and future are all covered within the 66 books He inspired. His plan is perfect and His love unfailing. Surrender by letting go...let go sister and let Him take charge.